Might as well be a Pink Bunny.
I have this insane ability to create blog posts in my head as I'm going about my day. Then I sit down to put my thoughts down (so I can remember to deal with them later) and I draw the biggest blank you've ever seen. I have a feeling I'm not alone when it comes to this. It's still frustrating.
I've freaked myself up by signing up for yet another half marathon, the Sioux Falls Skedaddle. I have a massive love affair with Pink Gorilla events. They're back of the pack supportive and they make things fun even when the surroundings are sucking hard. It's 2 weeks after the OmaHalf so I may spend April sore as heck. But it's in a town I haven't been to before (that I remember) and it's with good running friends. Needless to say I'm looking forward to it.
I'm gonna admit I'm scared though. I want to try to get a 2:50 half (told ya, I'm slow). I'm not sure I can do it. It may just be because I'm stuck on a treadmill for training right now but it feels like I'm even slower than ever. I'm right where I'm supposed to be with my long pace but I almost feel like I'm cheating when it comes to my conversational pace. I'm still working on "sprints" or "hard" runs and hills. And I think I'm doing them right. I don't know, my brain isn't my friend right now I guess.
Take Sunday (my "long" run day) for example. I did 7 miles, on my recommended easy pace. Walked a few times, had to hop off and on to get water, and ran. I felt guilty for using my mint lotion after my shower. I felt guilty for enjoying my compression socks. Almost like I didn't earn that small happiness. I have to hop off for water since I'm like a newborn deer on ice when I'm on the treadmill, but it still feels like I'm cheating.
A gal online told me something I need to work on when it comes to these damned thoughts. I wouldn't trash a friend's efforts like that, why am I trashing myself? I wouldn't want them giving up due to my cruel worlds, so why am I sabotaging myself so badly?
So that's where my brain is at going into week 4 of training. LOL 8 more to get it back in there huh?
I've freaked myself up by signing up for yet another half marathon, the Sioux Falls Skedaddle. I have a massive love affair with Pink Gorilla events. They're back of the pack supportive and they make things fun even when the surroundings are sucking hard. It's 2 weeks after the OmaHalf so I may spend April sore as heck. But it's in a town I haven't been to before (that I remember) and it's with good running friends. Needless to say I'm looking forward to it.
I'm gonna admit I'm scared though. I want to try to get a 2:50 half (told ya, I'm slow). I'm not sure I can do it. It may just be because I'm stuck on a treadmill for training right now but it feels like I'm even slower than ever. I'm right where I'm supposed to be with my long pace but I almost feel like I'm cheating when it comes to my conversational pace. I'm still working on "sprints" or "hard" runs and hills. And I think I'm doing them right. I don't know, my brain isn't my friend right now I guess.
Take Sunday (my "long" run day) for example. I did 7 miles, on my recommended easy pace. Walked a few times, had to hop off and on to get water, and ran. I felt guilty for using my mint lotion after my shower. I felt guilty for enjoying my compression socks. Almost like I didn't earn that small happiness. I have to hop off for water since I'm like a newborn deer on ice when I'm on the treadmill, but it still feels like I'm cheating.
A gal online told me something I need to work on when it comes to these damned thoughts. I wouldn't trash a friend's efforts like that, why am I trashing myself? I wouldn't want them giving up due to my cruel worlds, so why am I sabotaging myself so badly?
So that's where my brain is at going into week 4 of training. LOL 8 more to get it back in there huh?
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